Life decisions ... FC

      During this year I have had to make some serious decisions that will eventually affect me in my future. I wanted to grow up way too fast, and now that I'm here I've realized I want it all to slow down. Many people are so ready to just leave it all behind, but I'm not ready for anything. My whole life I've relied on my mother to motivate and guide me through the paths of life. However things took a sharp turn for the worst and I no longer have that inspiration and motivation. I lost a lot over these past few years, and sadly this is when a lot of my decisions actually matter the most.
     I tried to find a way out of growing up so quickly. I'm not ready to be completely responsible for all of my actions. There's a lot that I don't believe I'm not ready for. The crazy thing about it all is that I have so many people telling me about all the potential that I have and what I'm capable of, and I can't even see it for myself. I'm just hoping that I find a way to make everything work out in the long run for me.

My girlfriend Daya 😍

          I know some people came to this blog like , "does she know she spelled Draya wrong?". No, I'm not talking about Draya, I'm talking about Zendaya Coleman. Other celebrities call her Daya for short , and I just thought I should too cause one day we're gonna be really good friends. Zendaya used to be on a show that's apart of the new Disney channel, the one that's really terrible .  At first I thought she was another one of those new people that think they can sing and dance , but no. She can sing, and she can dance. 

      I winded up liking  who she was outside of the show because she was so down to earth and cool. I followed her on Instagram a while ago and I only seemed to love her even more. Not only is she an amazing dancer and singer, but she has one of the best fashion senses I've ever seen.  Her style is so underrated, and she doesn't get much of any recognition for it . She deserves so many fashion icon awards that she has never actually gotten. Anything she puts on, she kills just because she knows how to wear it. She doesn't have to dress half naked to be looked at as fashion icon , yet I say no names ...... RIHANNA. 

     Besides it all I just think she's amazing, and she needs to be recognized for it.

this essay though?

     What are we working on in  English? We are working on an essay that is on a very sensitive topic. The essay is on how in A Midsummer Night's Dream how gender plays a major role in the story. It shows how women are being under represented during the Shakespearean era. It was really interesting to find out that many of the roles women play was acted out by men. Gender is a major issue across the world.
     In A Midnight Summer's Dream expose the concept of parents choosing who the women should marry. For example, Hermia was almost forced to marry a man she did not love just because her father threatened her.
     If I was in Hermia's situation, I would really have to run away or something. I would refuse to marry a man that I do not love. If I had to choose between my father's love and a man I do not love.... Daddy you got to go. I love you,... but you have to go. You cannot mess up my life, and then be okay with me not being happy. I'm so happy that times have changed because I love the fact that I can make my own decisions and mistakes to learn from them in the best way possible.

The Little Rascals

       When I was younger, the Little Rascals was one of my favorite movies. It is about a group of little boys and they're in a "gang". One of them however (Alfalfa) had  done what the rest of them were afraid to do. Alfalfa had fallen in love with a girl named Darla. They were so cute, and everything they did just made me smile. He would sing to her, and they would go on boat rides, which was really mature for their ages. Alfalfa's "gang" leader Spanky didn't like that his friend likes girls, cause there was a strict no girls policy. So because Spanky really wanted them to break up, he sent some of his other friends to lie to Darla. Darla broke up with him, and Alfalfa did so much to get her back. Recently I watched it the other day for the first time in so many years. This time when I watched it, I watched it with a different perspective.
       I watched it this time realizing that everything those little kids did, teenagers do today. Today a guy can like a girl, and if his friends don't like her or her appearance then its bye to the girl. Today, for some reasons peoples opinions on others actually matter when it comes to relationships. This movie proves that people really need to grow up. If you think she's pretty, and you're friends are laughing cause you like her then they're not your real friends. You rule what happens.

Same subject, different topic

     I know that a class related response is usually about a response to something that we do in a class, but this blog goes a little bit deeper in class. Ms. Hudson is the best teacher to have for a physics class. She not only gives us extra help when its needed, but she actually has fun teaching our class. My learning process in that class tends to be difficult at times, but I accept the challenge for what it is because what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right? Ms. Hudson seems to be just an ordinary old teacher for those who have not had her since 9th grade, but having her this year led me to be closer to her. It led for all of us to be closer to her.
    She actually reminds me of an older version of me, she's very unique and artistic and always seems to be at one with herself. She listens to peoples problems and she helps them look at negative things in such a beautiful light, kind of like a "hippie" at times. We both get frustrated with people who can't think positively for at least once. Even during class, while we're learning the laws of conservation of momentum or something she manages to brighten everyone's day. Even when she's having a rough day, she always manages to brighten everyone's day. Sometimes I think that she knows me more than I know me. I never cease to be amazed in that class.    
    Even though this didn't really explain something I learned, I just thought it'd be interesting to let everyone know why I really love this class.

Being "happy" all the time

   I would just like to start off by saying that the title of my blog has quotation marks around the word happy for a reason.
     I'm always asked "Reyna, why are you so happy all the time"? I like to reply by saying " Why shouldn't I be happy all the time?" The only thing about that is I'm not always happy, I believe its literally impossible to be happy every single day. I go through things that every other teenager goes through. There are people who I've had issues with , I've lost people that are really important to me (both figuratively and literally), and I'm still stressing out over school, even though I'm a senior and its all over.
     Although life doesn't always go the way I would want it to, I always keep a positive attitude. I can't help it. I don't like to let the negative in my life weigh me down, because that's not going to help me succeed. Sometimes everything does get a little overwhelming, but at the end of the day I always manage to put a smile on my face, cause it makes me happy.

Algebra? Trig? Pre- Calc? I don't even know anymore...

     Pre- Calculus is a class like no other. When in a class with Ms. Rios a lot seems to confuse me. This past semester I had realized that there was no time to procrastinate, or not pay attention to class work . Starting in September, we were working on pre-calculus and I sadly fell back into my old lazy ways. I missed out on homework or sometimes when I didn't do it I just looked up the answers so that way I could at least have something to hand in.   Then came the time of regents week. Leading up to regents week Ms. Rios was prepping us for the Algebra II/Trig regents. Every single practice test she handed out I failed, cause I payed no attention whatsoever. I thought I had it all at the palm of my hand because math is my best subject, but when formulas come into play, it just gets harder and harder. I try not to think about the fact that math has letters added onto it instead of numbers, because that simply makes no sense. You can't add a letter because it's a letter, but that's off topic. When the regents prep classes were over, and it was time for the real test, I was so stuck on the idea that I would fail. I was so excited to find out that I passed my trig regents. 

    Despite all of the stress that I got from slacking off, and the relief I got from it all paying off, I learned my lesson the hard way. I learned that I love being taught by Ms. Rios, she's a tough little teacher but she cares, so I have to do things her way sometimes. I also learned that being in a small class, being in a class with 17 people proves to be very helpful at times.